I took this test yesterday and it is so accurate i actually did it a few days ago and it returned results accurate for that day. here goes.

You are feeling exhausted, worn out, drained. You feel that far too much is being asked of you but you still want to overcome these difficulties and establish yourself despite the effect such an effort seems to have on you. You are a proud person, assertive most of the time, but at this particular moment you are acting as if you have become resigned to the situation. What you need is some tender loving care - a gentle pat on the head (or maybe a ‘kick-up-the backside’) and then you’ll be raring to go.

At this time you ‘need to be needed’ and again you ‘need to need’. You have had this feeling for some time now and you are looking for someone who could share a close bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy. You have the belief that with the right person you could conquer the world.

Being emotionally inhibited you have no alternative at this time but to be a ‘watcher’ rather than a ‘doer’. At this time you feel as if you are being forced to compromise and stand back. But this is not the true you. Deep down there is that warm ‘open’ you which is awaiting the moment to burst forth - maybe like the chrysalis which will soon become the butterfly.

All of the stress and strains resulting from disappointment have led to agitation and anxiety. You have been going out of your way to make a good impression, but you have reservations as to the likelihood of succeeding. You feel that you have a right to accomplish all that you set your mind on but you have become helpless and distressed when circumstances have gone against you. The idea of failure is most upsetting and this can even mean utter dejection. You see yourself as a scapegoat and you feel everyone in your sphere of influence has tried to take undue advantage of you. You are trying to convince yourself that your failure to achieve standing and recognition is not of your making but indeed of those around you.

You are presently worried about your future and you feel that whatever you do will go wrong. At this time you are your own worst enemy. All the disappointment that you have experienced, coupled with the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals, have led to anxiety.

You would like recognition and a position of trust but you are concerned that these hopes and dreams may not be realised. You are very argumentative and insistent that you are right - maybe you are - but you are pushing too hard. Take it easy, let go, and smile. Smiling and agreeing with people works wonders - try it and see.

cancelled those things that i thought weren't true. If you are interested here goes the website. http://www.paulgoldin.com/colorgenics.htm

I am going to flunk my JCTs. No doubt. No questions.

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Tj year 2 Mepers

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Screwd up GP. Midday blues as well. Plus a terrible back ache.

CTs are rubbish. And can i not study for econs? Ms wong gonna get a nightmare marking our papers.

I hope physics is okay, i hate pressure from others even if they don't give it directly. But was still guessing my way through the MCQ.

I suddenly lost all momentum. Maths here i come!

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"Impossibility is an Impossibility" -- Jensen Tan

We should all take that to the exam halls shoudn't we? Cause nothing is impossible, and if you've tried your best like what renee says, be happy that you have tried all you could and if in the end you still don't do well, just know you've tried.

Mugging physics for today. Hopefully it all pays off, 3 weeks of sacrificing all the shopping, the fun, for a very sad life.

so long friends,
with love, melly.

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hello friends,

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Time flies, 2 more days and here comes JCTs, here comes school. Are you excited? I don't.

At least i'm not the only one who finds TJ unfamiliar, or strange for that matter. I don't believe i've been in TJ for 1 1/2 years and still feel out of place. And did i mention i don't believe i'm going to take exams next week? Yea. Its like one subject can take half a month so one month, or rather three weeks can only finish one and a half subject. that equals to a U grade.

And my poor maths teacher is sick of answering questions that he refuses to come online. But its scary that he will call you if he wants to scold you there and then. Hais, now back to Stravinsky.

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You need to walk on with faith, despite the failures that you face. Take a sip of coffee, cry and get on with life. Through the steam you see that life's a blur, through the bittersweet taste you know life's like that. Every down leads to an up just like the business cycle, recession, recovery, boom.

Things have not been going well not just for myself but people around me, despondent, despair, depression thats what i've been seeing. It just seems like the world is collapsing, the emptiness, the lost of direction. Perhaps past experiences have gotten me numb, perhaps they have changed me to think more positively.

I'm worried, i'm stressed, but i'm staying calm. And I guess Ran's daily mantra does make sense. "Cry. Pick yourself up. Move on."

Cheers my friends, have a cup of coffee.

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My brain is bursting and my head hurts. I don't remember studying till i reach such a state, lost and all.

And the holidays are ending soon. Went back to TJ today and it felt so foreign, i guess i never really blended in to this school, and i doubt I'll miss this place. I'll remember the friendships forged but just not the school. I remember how TK felt like home, where warmth embraced you each time you stepped in, but in TJ its coldness that pierces through your bones. Okay maybe i'm exaggerating but thats the idea.

Nap time, and i simply refuse to do the last compo technique.

Can't wait for this episode to be over.

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How this blog got about.

When vectors cause a headache, when magnetic field gets you spinning, when current electricity sends some voltage to your head, when Hindemith drives you nuts when you suddenly remember you take econs and you suddenly are lost.

So what do you do next?

You turn on the com with the excuse to yourself that you are going to start your compo techniques which you only have a few more days to complete and yet do everything else except open the Sibelius program.

Did i mention how doomed you are? You haven't started studying econs and you have exactly one week to cram 2 years worth of information into your brains, you are still walking on the tight rope for physics, and hanging in mid air for maths, calculating the probability of passing all your subjects is just too demoralizing.

Now, just press start and turn off the com and continue vectors and remember that you still have tonnes to do. And shit you really did everything other than composition.

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