I couldn't resist the temptation of opening the book to the first page even just to smell it. Ha. And once the first page is open and the first word is read there is no end to it.
The first part of the book was rather dark and reading it till 3 am was slightly nerve wrecking and i hid most of myself under the blanket. The later part of the book was kind of unexpected but touching at parts. Countless of people died in this book kinda sad. I guess i learnt from the story that there can be many perspectives about people and we shouldn't judge people so quickly at least not till the very end.
Harry Potter has took me on a journey, opening the book is like entering the pensieve looking at the memory of harry, as i slot the book into its place next to the half blood prince, I feel sad that the journey has ended though all ends well, I know now that I am back into reality, and what i'm going to enter next is the world of einstein, marshell learner, hindemith, maclaurin just to name a few people.
I just finished watching "kimi wa petto" a japanese drama as well and i think my character is somewhat similar to the female lead. On the outside, she is someone that seems so strong and wears a "Noh" mask. Yet within is someone so fragile, who has built a wall around her heart. It is difficult to open up and show others who she really is, she is afraid to show her weakness to others and afraid of how others would look at her. I guess for me its almost the same situation, only few can get through the wall into my heart, people whom i dearly miss. The doctor told her, " You can't love her man". Perhaps so I was just thinking today, I would be too concerned about how I should be, what he wants me to be and loving independence, I would probably never want to be tied down. Though deep down, there is a longing for someone whom i can be myself with, to show the most embarrasing side of myself and the weak side of myself. And not the one who appears to be strong in front of others, who seems cold to those that i do not trust.
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just did the colour genics test and you would see this mirrors what i wrote about myself.
You appear to others around you as a person who is simply 'laid back'. From time to time you shelve your ambitions and forgo the desire for prestige and recognition and you are often considered as mentally lazy. You have the ability and you are the first to know this, but you prefer to take things easy and indulge your longing for comfort and security.
You need an atmosphere of peace and quiet and you would like to share a bond of understanding with the 'right person' - you have the belief that with the right person, your stress and anxiety could be minimised.
You lack confidence and that is a great pity because deep down you are indeed a warm caring person. This lack of confidence is making you wary of being drawn into any open discussion or conflict and so you feel as if you should let matters lie and leave well alone. But there may be a pleasant surprise in store for you. You are beginning to grow and very soon - sooner than you believed possible - this warm loving new you will be available for all to see and to appreciate.
Setback after setback has resulted in considerable stress and now you have got to the stage where you are continuously on your guard, not only to protect yourself from others but to protect yourself from yourself. It would seem that many of your unfulfilled hopes and dreams have led to uncertainty and suspicion. You no longer wish to answer to others and you are insisting on freedom of thought. You feel that you are fully self-sufficient and can control your own destiny. You are seeking ways to protect yourself from further loss of prestige and against further setbacks. You have become very dependent and you doubt that matters could possibly get any better in the immediate future and this negative attitude is leading you to exaggerate your claims and to refuse reasonable compromise.
You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.
Labels: harry potter, kimi wa petto, life
